In my experience, there seems to be strong connections between my brokenness and my givenness. When I have been able to view the deep wounds in my life through the lenses of chosenness and blessedness, my brokenness can be claimed for redemption as well. Once I can live into the truth that even my deepest hurts, fears, and areas of shame can be sources of sustenance, my brokenness can be given to my community the way a meal is shared among friends.
Just as bread needs to be broken to be shared with others, so too our lives.
There can be great insecurity in sharing from our brokenness. I imagine the boy who offered his few loaves to Jesus to feed the masses may have doubted the value of his contribution. It is precisely through his vulnerability and willingness that Jesus facilitated the working of this miracle to occur.
This can be a terrifying concept if we cannot find rest in the fact that the One who breaks also chooses and blesses. This same One was himself broken and given to us, on our behalf, for our benefit. If this weren’t enough, He reminds us the evening before his great brokenness that a servant is not above his master. This brokenness would lead to a great giving of the Spirit who was poured out on all the chosen and blessed ones. This Spirit will never leave us nor forsake us, even in our own hurts, fears, and insecurities. In His brokenness, through the given Spirit, we can find true wholeness.
In Greek, the word for church is ἐκκλησία (ekklesia) or “the called out ones”. This definition can evoke many different thoughts, but imagine with me the power of a group of individuals being called out of the self focus of their own brokenness, who trust in the goodness of the One who chooses, blesses, and gives. As followers who claim the blessing and intimate choosing of God, our redemption is being worked out through the brokenness of ourselves for others by the leading of the Spirit. Whoever loses his life will find it. As we move through our brokenness, we are daily being given to a hurting world. Do we choose to allow ourselves to be given? As we dwell in the midst of our broken communities, we come as witnesses to the redeeming work that God has been and is restoring in us. Our wounds, our brokenness communicate the healing and wholeness we have received.
I have been blessed by those brave enough to share the blessing of their brokenness with me. From a previously divorced couple that counseled my wife and I to friends willing to chat about stories of struggle and victory, I have benefitted greatly from those who are willing to give of themselves to contribute to my wholeness.
We are called to be a given, “called out” people, given not from a place of scarcity but from a place of abundance. The meager loaves of bread were transformed into baskets of leftovers as Jesus broke and gave them to his followers.
In what areas of brokenness have you received blessing? Where is the Spirit redeeming and restoring your hurt? How can you give those areas as a miracle of shared blessing for others around you?